I never thought the day would come…

when I quit Wushu. But it did. My contract ended last week and I decided not to renew it. I guess I just lost interest again when I realized I stopped improving. I felt like I was just wasting my parent’s money. They said they didn’t mind paying for it if I was enjoying it and felt like I was learning. But I think I dragged it out for far too long. I should have quit last year. I decided not to though because I wasn’t ready to let go of it all yet. I liked the “Wushu Team” status, I liked being looked up to, and I wasn’t ready to say, “goodbye” to my Wushu family. But I thought about it and realized that even though I wouldn’t have that status anymore I would still have my reputation, people would still look up to me as the “big sister” of the school, and I wouldn’t have to leave my “family” behind if I continued to take regular classes.

I remember writing that post about Wushu a while back. It was about how much I loved it and how even though it had its ups and downs I couldn’t let go of it. But a lot changed this year. The teachers of the classes changed and I wasn’t happy with the way a certain one taught. In that post I also talked about how I didn’t understand how my old “brothers and sister” could quit and let go of it all. To be honest I feel like a hypocrite now. I didn’t go to Wushu today. It felt so weird… I wonder if i’m going to miss it.

When I told my teammates I quit they were all surprised, they said they were “mad” at me, and that it was so unexpected and sudden. I’m going to miss training with them and seeing their beautiful faces. Even though I see them almost everyday at school :P I actually really miss my “old” Wushu Team family. It was me and all guys. They messed with me and picked on me but there was never a dull moment. We were always laughing and smiling even though we were working our butts off. I see most of them at school too but it’s just not the same. 

Anyways, I just felt like posting today. I haven’t been doing very much of that lately. So that was a quick little update on my life LOL There is something else but i’ll save that for another day ;)

helloooerinnn:

B on apes test tmrw

please

Bestfriends.

What would a person do without them? They give you the best advice when you need it, they always speak the truth even if it isn’t what you want to hear, and they are always there to listen whenever you need someone to talk to. I don’t know what I would do without my best friends. And yes you can have more than 1 best friend. They are always there for me whenever I need them.

I’ve have had many “bestfriends” over the years. Starting from back before I even started elementary school to now, a Sophomore in high school. I’ve been in so many different groups but none of them had ever seemed “right”. The groups of people I hung out with in elementary school to the beginning of 7th grade only cared about popularity… or that’s what I thought. Then I met a group of girls in 7th grade. They were calm, more innocent, and more like me. I felt like I actually fit in with this group of girls. In 8th grade we started sitting with the “bigger” group. And in 9th grade I started to hang out more with the people in the “bigger” group. This year that “bigger” group broke off into smaller groups. Which leaves me with the group of friends I currently hang out with.

I feel like I have changed. But not in a bad way. A good way. I use to hang out with a group of people who never understood me and kinda sorta influenced me in a bad way. But now I hang out with people who understand me and motivate me to be the best I can be. Over the years I have become less shy. My friends have brought me out of my “shell”. I’m so lucky to have them in my life <3

(I found this in my drafts and thought I would post it. It’s from last year).

To do list this weekend.

mochimichelle:

• read and take notes on Chapter 2 of APES
• finish typing the lab, and all the dumb calculations
• study for Ch. 1&2 test for APES
• Quizstar for Ch. 2

minus the typing but i do need to work on the data table :/