I never thought the day would come…
when I quit Wushu. But it did. My contract ended last week and I decided not to renew it. I guess I just lost interest again when I realized I stopped improving. I felt like I was just wasting my parent’s money. They said they didn’t mind paying for it if I was enjoying it and felt like I was learning. But I think I dragged it out for far too long. I should have quit last year. I decided not to though because I wasn’t ready to let go of it all yet. I liked the “Wushu Team” status, I liked being looked up to, and I wasn’t ready to say, “goodbye” to my Wushu family. But I thought about it and realized that even though I wouldn’t have that status anymore I would still have my reputation, people would still look up to me as the “big sister” of the school, and I wouldn’t have to leave my “family” behind if I continued to take regular classes.
I remember writing that post about Wushu a while back. It was about how much I loved it and how even though it had its ups and downs I couldn’t let go of it. But a lot changed this year. The teachers of the classes changed and I wasn’t happy with the way a certain one taught. In that post I also talked about how I didn’t understand how my old “brothers and sister” could quit and let go of it all. To be honest I feel like a hypocrite now. I didn’t go to Wushu today. It felt so weird… I wonder if i’m going to miss it.
When I told my teammates I quit they were all surprised, they said they were “mad” at me, and that it was so unexpected and sudden. I’m going to miss training with them and seeing their beautiful faces. Even though I see them almost everyday at school :P I actually really miss my “old” Wushu Team family. It was me and all guys. They messed with me and picked on me but there was never a dull moment. We were always laughing and smiling even though we were working our butts off. I see most of them at school too but it’s just not the same.
Anyways, I just felt like posting today. I haven’t been doing very much of that lately. So that was a quick little update on my life LOL There is something else but i’ll save that for another day ;)